It’s…isolating. Exhaustion. Frustration and frustrating. I just want to sleep, and sleep, and sleep until this feeling goes away.Read More...
Realistically, I expected to be a little overwhelmed by two kids…I’m trying…It all just feels like too much.Read More...
I’m so excited for R to be here, to see him, to see what he looks like, and I am so damn ready to not be pregnant: to bend at the waist, to see my toes, to be able to take an ibuprofen, to have a beer and/or glass of wine. But.Read More...
I’m just telling you, as a mom of almost two, who loves my babies more than life itself; no one, and I mean no one gets to tell me what I can or can’t do with my reproductive system. Sorry.
Whoops, got a little heated and a little controversial.Read More...
This is my last pregnancy. I’ve known that for most of the pregnancy. My father-in-law is aghast at this, because “You’re so young!” but, for us, it makes sense.Read More...
It’s all over.
Well, grad school anyhow.
I’m waiting on one grade, then I can really breathe a sigh of relief.
At this, point, I’m somehow both relieved and exhausted. I’ve gone to bed around 8 the past two nights. I can’t make myself do grading.
And as much as I want to say that I’m going to have a relaxing next sixish weeks (until my due date!) We have so much to do: baby clothes washing, cleaning carpets, deep-cleaning the house, packing hospital bags, packing the diaper bag, SO MUCH STUFF!
And…I’m pretty sure I started having contractions yesterday. Which is pretty on-par with my first pregnancy. I started having contractions, dilating, and effacing at 34.5 weeks…soooo. We just started half a week early this time?
Hospital bags are now a priority.
I wish that I could turn the energy that I expended on grad school toward all the other stuff that needs done, but fuck. I just can’t.
I want to sleep for the next….year? And, yes, the irony of saying that with a baby on the way isn’t lost on me. I’m just fucking drained, man.
But…either way. I’m done with grad school. Done. I will never be a college student of any kind again.
It is a relief.
And. Baby Boy 2 will be here before we know it.
My life looks pretty good right now.
I want to be the blog that has great suggestions and advice for these overwhelming situations, but today, this morning as I’m writing this at 5:30, I don’t have any wise words, advice, or even inspiring words.Read More...